Icky stuff

Now this is ever so slightly icky – and maybe addressed more to other trans women who may have gone thru this and be able to tell me if my experience is “normal”. Head tells me it is nothing to worry about: usual panicky heart is thudding away too many beats to the minute.

OK: you have been warned. If you don’t like posts about moistness and personal health, just look away.

Now!

Otherwise. As those who have gone the MtF route will be well aware, the bane of your life post-op…bane, that is, until it becomes interesting🙂 …is the daily dilation chore and…the douching to follow.

{sigh!}

How many baths since July? I mean: i know i like baths, but there comes a point…

Anyway: yesterday i followed routine as usual. Got dressed, did some pottering, headed down to the kitchen to cook something and…felt something warm and wet trickling down my leg.

Instant OMG panic…as first thought was that it was blood. But nope: turned out to be water…a very large amount of same.

Which i am guessing got left behind post-douche.

So: initial fears calmed…leaving just a slightly residual worry about whether it is anything to be worried about. Andrea reckons it is simple tightness, which seems fair enough as explanation, and then went on to express a degree of envy over same. 🙂

But is it healthy? Is it unhealthy? Is it a potential source of infection?

Anyone else prepared to own to similar? Or to re-assure?

If it happens again, i’ll contact the Clinic. Otherwise, though, i don’t wish to bother them about something that might be nothing – but don’t want to ignore it if its something.

Fellow (shy) hypochondriacs will know what i mean.

jane
xx

10 Responses so far »

  1. 1

    Suzanne Bessent-Rothwell said,

    Jane a year on my OH find about half an hour after dilation there is some liquid expelled, she still granulating but feels as it only happens afterwards it must be related.

  2. 2

    Lucy Melford said,

    Everyone’s post-op anatomy is slightly different, and some will have a fairly ‘open’ vulva, others something more clam-like, with a good seal that can hold onto fluids. I’m guessing that your labia majora fit snugly enough together to retain residual fluids without leaking – at least while at rest. Get dynamic, maybe just walking about, or perhaps bending, and those trapped fluids will leak out. So if I had this issue, I’d try crouching a bit after baths or douching, as you would naturally when going to the loo, to separate the labia and help ensure that all fluids get a chance to drain out. And then be assiduous with towels or tissues to mop up what might remain.

    Women’s anatomy is of course mostly internal, and the scope fo harbouring sundry fluids is great. I think you’re right to be aware that a vagina, or the cleft between the labia, is a favoured spot for infections to develop, but if your hygiene is good there shouldn’t be any problem.

    Lucy

  3. 3

    eclectic chicken said,

    Not sure what you miscontrued as tightness envy…. though having had both my kids by the emergency exit and 20 years of doing pavlovic pelvic floor exercises (ie triggered by mere mention of pelvic floor as opposed to opera inspired puddings) i resent anysort of slur that I may be a bit of a slack Alice.

    My grumble was with the fact that in your great big girly flapping panic you left the puddle on the kitchen floor and I paddled through it barefoot twice before it dawned on me what the puddle might be!!!!

  4. 4

    Rebecca Ashling said,

    I get a little leakage after douching. It’s annoying but normal, I guess.

  5. 5

    Liz Church said,

    Phil said something about vaginismus last time I saw him – tightness due to stress. I suppose it could be that you’re clamping up during douching, retaining fluid and then relaxing later on.

    Do you know what a mop is?🙂

  6. 6

    It still occasionally happens. I have before now discovered I was sitting in a wet patch in my car after a trip to the swimming baths. A chat with cisgender friends revealed that it isn’t just transwomen who get this.

  7. 7

    Not uncommon for water to get trapped and trickle out, especially after a bath.

    Re douching, you may eventually want to wean yourself off it. It’s essential in the early days to prevent infection, but if you do it long term it can provoke Bactrian vaginosis or thrush.

  8. 8

    Er, bacterial vaginosis. Stupid autocorrect.

  9. 9

    Annica said,

    I weaned myself off douching after about 4 months. It also helped changing the lubricant that I used to Silky (from a well know chemist). Less mess and not so much need to douche.

    • 10

      janefae said,

      is it actually a matter of weaning off? I was given to understand it was a lifetime requirement…for hygiene purposes.

      Certainly, i’d save a lot of bath water if i stopped.

      jane
      xx


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