Medical intimacy

There is definitely a different ethos to female examinations. Medical examinations, that is, of the female body as opposed to the male.

This is the bit I had been waiting for. Almost three months post-op. So back down to Brighton to see the elegant Mr T and hopefully get the all-clear for swimming, dancing and even – horrors! – a bit of self-exploration.

The news on that front was not 100% positive. Yes: everything had healed much as expected. Better than, in fact. Nothing was now likely to drop out – and if I continue with the exercises and douching I should be able theoretically to have sex AND avoid thrush for most of the rest of my life. Oh. Impressed.

But not yet with the jumping about stuff. This, mostly, was due to the fact that despite the good result, there was some “polishing off” to do. Scar tissue and in some places, “granulation” – which I still don’t quite get, but which reveals itself as angry pink bubbling of the skin.

So Mr T attacked those bits with silver nitrate which will apparently burn off the mutant tissue and leave me with a smooth satin finish. Only there are two side-effects to this. The first, most inelegant, was that I spent much of the journey home desperately wanting to scratch, whilst simultaneously very aware that having a good scratch at my crotch on the late night train from Brighton was possibly not behaviour expected from your averaga middle-aged lady.

The second side-effect is that I am bleeding again. Only very slightly bu-ut…possibly not a good idea to go swimming in such circs, even in my local pool: one never knows when the sharks are circling.

Meanwhile, lying back on the couch, legs akimbo, whilst Mr T and Liz – his PA – turned on lighting that would not have looked out of place on a film set – and went diving down for a good look, I was struck by the thought with which I began this piece. Which is just how different my position – in every sense of the word – is now. Examining the male anatomy had always struck me as a casual, perfunctory sort of affair.

Unzip. Drop your pants if greater exposure is needed. Wave willy around at Doctor. Zip.

None of this intense focus: the lights, the gloving up, the application of lubricant and…well, mostly the helplessness of it. At one point Liz picked up a speculum and, for a moment, I thought that they were coming in for the kill. But no: “that won’t be needed”, as he poked with some other implement.

Jeez! It is so much more intimate. Which maybe comes with the geometry of the thing, but feels like something else as well.

Can’t QUITE put my finger on it (and no: that is not intended as mildly rum witticism).

This wasn’t my first intimate exam. I’m sure it won’t be the last. I don’t think I dislike the process exactly. But there is an emotion creeping in there that isn’t altogether jumping for joy. I shall sleep on it and I shall see.

Jane

3 Responses so far »

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    Shirley Anne said,

    Relax, lie back and enjoy your womanhood Jane. You could think of England but probably your mind was elsewhere. Gosh my first examination was almost four weeks after the op. and one of the things the surgeon did was to zap a couple of rougue hairs in my delicate new vaginal opening….by electrolysis. Actually I was surprised not to feel a thing.

    Shirley Anne xxx

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    Sabine said,

    Hint on the scratching while sitting in public.

    Take your coat and lay it over your mid, trying to cover from breasts to knees like you are cold. Turn slightly if possible and scratch away under cover. If you only have a short jacket center it on the area in question and shiver once for verisimilitude or ask anyone else if they feel a draft. Just avoid the urge to sigh deeply at the feeling of a job well done.

    Also useful when dealing with a troublesome zipper.

    With a bit of practice you can use your handbag for cover, too. What did you think we have those giant handbags for? Not just to carry around a week’s worth of elephants.

    From a medical standpoint you were probably better off leaving the area alone, though.

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    agh this make me think of that goddamn awful smear test i haven’t booked… I have another feeling too. Dread! every time! SO clincal, too involved, too long and bloody uncomfortable. yeuch!


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