Definitely in a strange place right now. Feeling very down…which I suspect is part psychology and part hormonal. Utterly exhausted. Again, probably part and part…but last few nights, just found myself dropping to sleep at a horrendously early hour.
Sparkle is missing. So are my boobs! It feels like they’ve shrunk.. . I hate that!
I really don’t like feeling like this.
And yes. I am feeling quite terrified. Not about the op itself. More about the afterward. All the things people have warned me of and the thought of dilation and sorting hormones again and…well, everything just feels overwhelming right now. Lots of tears.
But not all bad. Time is starting to run away with me.. . so much so that I missed marking yesterday’s milestone: now less than 300 hours to go.
I am so looking forward…I am so scared.
(i don’t think there is a smiley to express that!