I will start this by stating – categorically – that the attitude is personal. Its about me and how i feel about my journey: not rules or judgment on how others do it.
What’s right for me.
From the off, i have alternately impressed and infuriated Andrea by a very strong sense i have of needing to be authentic. i wouldn’t contemplate wigs. As for breast forms? Ugh!
Now, as matters proceed, that changes. The hormones have done some work on my hair. Nothing like enough. But its growing back in. I’ve had it styled. I feel…”authentic” enough… to say: if it doesn’t look right NOW…i’ll consider a wig.
Ditto breasts – although there, the hormones have barely started. I still won’t wear anything that smacks of imitation. But if in a year or two i am still stuck at a sad AA cup..then i’d think about it.
I’m sure there’s a logic there somewhere. I’m not AGAINST cross-dressing: i just don’t ever want to feel like that is what i am doing.
And so to the problem. I have to attend a party: a big £70-a-head all-night exotic party. I need to be there, because i am a finalist for an award – and besides, it sounds like a lot of fun
As the dress code says: “fanciful floating chiffon and silks… in rich, shimmering colours, sparkles, feathers, and jewels.” I shall studiously ignore suggestions for sexing the outfit up!
andrea has come up with some altogether sensible ideas. i, on the other hand, am thinking fantasy – a fairy theme.
And here’s the problem. First, i am pre-op…which means i still have a rather unsightly bulge below the waist. i have tried the all-powerful “magic pants”…leading to an even more unsightly “muffin top” around my waist. So what next? A pantie girdle?
And whilst i won’t go down the breast form route…what can i do to add a little more lift? Help – again!
This is so frustrating: I know how i want to look…i am just a couple of years too early. i can’t have everything i want. Yet.
But all suggestions very gratefuly received